It is breaking my heart and I can hardly see through my tears to type this. Up until a few months ago, he was a strapping 6ft2' active husband and father and now I feel I am looking at the shell of what he used to be. Everyday I am doing more and more for him (not that I mind ) and I know he is struggling with this aswell.

Although he is eating really well, and we seem to have the pain management under control, he is getting weaker. Since his discharge from hospital on Friday ,I have really noticed him going downhill.

Hi missydawn How are things? I am feeling so scared today as my husband is due to see the consultant this afternoon to review how things are. I just take one day at a time, as like you said it is so consuming. I can't work as I feel unable to cope with that aswell and I just feel we are existing, we are certainly not living ! We would be married 25 years in August, so like you, it's a long time, and we had such plans.Īre you receiving any counselling ? I have had 4 sessions now and I have found that really helpful. He has also had radiotherapy on his back as he has a tumour and that hasn't worked and gives him immense pain. So who knows when he will start the new course. Equally, my husband has had 2 courses of chemotherapy which haven't worked and he was due to start on a new course last week but that hasn't happened as he was in hospital for 3 days last week as he couldn't stop being sick and then he was readmitted on Monday and discharged tonight as again couldn't stop being sick. I am sorry to hear that you are in a similar situation although you probably understand best what I am going through.

My husband says i undermine him